First Week of Lent ('Uike Mamahi)

“Candy? Well, already given that up. Fast food? Done. Chipotle?! Done that too,” Bailey laughed, thinking about her answer to my question.

 “I don’t know, Lent doesn’t seem to make sense this year…I just don’t know what else to give up…”

When I was 12, I gave up candy for Lent. The year after that, T.V. Then, fast food. One year I gave up “seconds”. Another year, pop. (I don’t even drink pop).

In college, my roommate, Ari, and I gave up cheese. We broke it day two; and day three; then again just about every day afterwards.

This year, to repent for all of my feeble “sacrifices” and past failures, I’ve decided to go all in for Lent. This year, I’ve given up:

            - Candy

            - T.V.

            - Fast food

            - Pop

            - Cheese (contrary to actually not-all-that-popular belief, Chesdale is not cheese)

            - A high standard of personal hygiene

            - Running water

            - Showering (bucket baths for days)

            - Hot water

            - Feeling clean

            - Sex

            - Instant communication

            - Attending or viewing sporting events (still reppin’ Cavs/Browns/Indians though)

            - Restaurants

            - Going to bed after 10 o’clock

            - Waking up after sunrise

            - Pants

            - Shorts

            - Showing my sexy knees at all (slash, ankles or even babycalf…)

            - Showing my shoulders

            - Bikinis (or just swimming not fully-clothed)

            - Drinking (excessive amounts of) alcohol

            - Downloading (or even knowing about) new music

            - Going to the gym

            - Being competitive

            - Walking at a moderate to fast pace

            - Doing anything at a moderate to fast pace

            - Baked goods

            - Chocolate milk

            - Ice

- Pizza

            - Tacos

            - Chipotle (six months sober)

            - Being comfortable

            - Chucks

- Overalls

            - Crocs

            - Wearing anything but variations of the same four outfits every week

            - Knowing exactly what’s going on around me at any given moment

            - Personal space

            - Personal privacy

            - Eating a variety of foods

            - Doing things on Sundays

            - Breakfast (pancakes, eggs, bacon etc. etc. etc.)

            - Driving

            - Everyday Household appliances (e.g. washers/driers)

            - Air conditioning

            - Having a toilet that regularly flushes when I press a button/handle

Kalapu Kava-Tonga (Tongan Kava Club)

Judging by his ashy complexion and papery, wrinkled skin, the man sitting to my left was in his upper forties to early fifties. Whether he looked as much because of the natural wear-and-tear of increasing age, or because of too many nights spent gulping down countless bowls of Tongan kava, I have no idea. 

He sat crossed legged, in a suit jacket and ta’ovala over a tupenu, his hair closely cropped, with his hand resting heavily on my thigh as he waited for me to serve him. Mumbling, he asked me in Tongan if it was okay for him to put his hand there, as if he hadn’t already been taking liberties with doing it anyway for the past 45 minutes. I grunted an abrupt “mm,” accompanied by a flick of my eyebrows in response, and hurried to complete my duties as a tou’a, emptying the ladleful of what looks more like muddied water than something anyone would actively seek to consume, into his coconut-shell kava bowl.

Freshly mixed kava being added to the serving bowl.

Even after five months living here, I maintain some degree of a very Western, maybe overly zealous appreciation for personal space.

The man lifted the bowl to drink and relieved my thigh of his presumptuous but respectfully non-drifting hand, which allowed my protective palangi bubble to re-inflate with don’t-touch-me vibes.

Two of the men in my kava circle surrounding the bowl of Tongan kava

Albeit briefly. At least until the next time he decided he wanted a drink. 

Following his lead, other men in the circle began to think my fully covered thighs required their devotion as well.

In truth, they didn’t, but this simple fact seemed to be lost on them.

I put up with it pretty good-naturedly until the teenager to my right made to assault my feet under the pretense of giving me a foot massage. Both incredibly ticklish and simultaneously unaware of the degree to which his advances derived from a place of innocent generosity or sexual deviance—while also just being straight up unprepared for that shit—I reflexively smacked his hands away and drew my feet back under me.

Yes, sitting side-saddle for six hours straight while serving a group of progressively drunken men a substance that cultural standards dictate I can’t even drink, does happen to make me lose all feeling in my hips, legs and toes; but no thank you, sir. Hands and feet inside the ride at all times, please.

Men of all ages smoking and drinking at the kalapu.

After that minor incident the evening went along quite smoothly, with a mixed torrent of provocative winks, and lusty tongue flicks occasionally sauced up by slurping sounds.

Between discussions of chest and pubic hair and masturbation, endless sexual innuendos, pelvic thrusts and the unexpected surprise of opened man-skirts flashing suggestively in our directions, alternating kava circles in the hall would begin strumming guitars and ukuleles to the opening chords of traditional Tongan songs. The men would pause in their lewdness, their richly deep and voluminous voices rising and falling in spontaneous harmonization.

After a brief interval the previous conversations would pick up right where they left off.

At one point, in another PCV’s kava circle, one man said something so offensive to her that another man, a minister, grabbed the offender’s face in one hand and swung at it forcefully with the open palm of his other. She didn’t hear what the man had said. I can’t even begin to imagine what they were all saying that we weren’t catching due to our limited understanding of the Tongan language. 

Me and some of the younger guys in my circle representing Sapa'ata village.

At 1 a.m., the guy who’d asked us to tou’a the kalapu signaled to us that we could leave. We made our way to the door, shaking hands as we passed between the scattered men, trying our best to anticipate and avoid those who would try to subject us to the non-so-secret Tongan handshake—a swift index-finger-to-palm scratch meant to signify that the perpetrator wishes to sneak off to the bush and have his/her way with you.

Among the four palangi tou’a (the other PCVs on ‘Eua and I), we accumulated approximately 57 marriage proposals and 34 offers to accompany us safely to our sparsely-populated homes. All in a night’s work.

Kicking butt. Taking names.

Bailey twerking it at her circle representing one of the villages on 'Eua

To be sure, not all faikava are so raunchy. I’ve been to others that are the opposite—spiritual and subdued—such as the ones before church where soft-spoken men sing hymns and join each other in prayer. There, as a tou’a and the only female, I am usually thanked for my service then left pretty much to myself.

Kava circles perform an important function in Tongan communities. Often they are organized to raise money, for example, for a church. They help to preserve a piece of traditional Tongan and South Pacific island culture that dates back to a period before the missionaries came. They are the men’s equivalent to the women’s weaving circles: a place to hang out and socialize with other men, swapping stories and talking about whatever it is guys talk about.